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    Thursday, September 09, 2004     1:32 AM

you know what i'm tired of?

well, then let me enlighten you.

i'm tired of immaturity. i'm tired of stupid, silly games. i'm tired of the word "flirting" and all it entails. i'm tired of being sick, feeling bad, not knowing, knowing too much. i'm tired of feeling unloved, not cared about. i'm tired of feeling undesired. i'm tired of knowing i'm right and not being able to do a damn thing about it.

i'm tired of being tired.

i'm tired of love lost, stolen words, borrowed time, unrequited trust. i'm tired of being alone with my thoughts at 4 a.m. - i'm tired of having thoughts at 4 a. m.

i'm tired of misperceived misunderstandings, thoughtless reactions, unfair conclusions. i'm tired of unfinished sentences, unwanted gestures.

i'm tired of feeling like this is it - is this it, all there is?

i'm tired of the abuse, the misuse, the passive neglect, the active thoughtlessness.

i'm tired of knowing i'm too good and yet never being good enough.

i'm just so tired. my effort is spent.

so - wake up. it's your move now.

____

reading...
Tori Amos, Piece by Piece
listening/watching...
The Golden Girls
playing..
KOTOR II
randomness...
In the Waiting Line - Zero Seven
linkage...
My Twitter
quote...
"It is time for me to walk the abyss. Time to reclaim my own. I must talk to the Morningstar. I do not have high hopes for the meeting."
-Dream, Sandman