Wednesday, April 21, 2004
no, there's no one else that good. Achilles, without the heel.
have that quote about wanting to be a better man from As Good As It Gets going through my head. it's amazing what one good night in the midst of a hellish week can do for the soul.
one of the best friends a girl could have reminded me it's okay to hate. not just okay, but normal. that said, i'm beginning to understand that all relationships (and i use that in the broad sense of the word, to include friends, etc) have to go through tough periods, periods where you possibly could hate that other person as fiercely as you love them. after all, if getting along with people was always easy, fewer people would strive to become more evolved. while that intensity may not always be the case, my point is that i think if you're bond is strong enough, if you both know it's really worth it, then the relationship becomes stronger for it. more solidified. and if you realize it's not worth it, well, that's even tougher but ultimately a person has to do what's right for them. it's important though, i think, to make the tough decisions after the hating (or whatever) is past, because then you can think with a clear head about what is really important.
on a completely random note, someone should bottle the essence of raw passion, tenderness and contentment for me. i'd like to have it swirling around me every day.
"When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter."