Sunday, January 05, 2003
there's a song on Tori's new album, "Strange" and for awhile i was connecting it with someone else when all this time it had a lot more to do with a person i thought i was a closer to. not sure i really am anymore though. i'm not supposed to see anything as selfish that he does, but it is, it's selfish and uncaring and i've been too forgiving and too complacent.
goes back to not wanting to be alone, a demon i thought i'd put in its place a long time ago. i haven't really, and it's hard to admit that. and it's hard but i have to stand up for myself and say what i feel instead of just letting this continue the way it is.