Friday, September 20, 2002
lying in bed, not sleeping because i have too much on my mind. nothing coherent really, just the feeling that i'm being pulled in too many directions lately, that i don't know where i want my life to go.
put on some old Cure and grabbed Fuzzy Wuzzy. sobbed those silent, shaking sobs that are very cleansing and felt a bit better, a little less desolate.
and then i realized something i want to share.
Fuzzy Wuzzy, for those of you who don't know, is my koala bear, a bear i was given New Years Eve 1992 by Shannon, the wonderful guy who hosts this site for me. Shannon was my first boyfriend and he remains a wonderful friend. i'd like to call him a best friend, and he in his way, but we're not as close as i wish we could be. he's getting married in a couple months to a wonderful woman and i'm very glad they found each other and are so happy. this past friday was a friday the 13th. at the back of my mind that day was that 11 years ago on a friday the 13th i started talking to this wonderful person who has somehow managed to stay in my life and bring happiness even now.
Shannon really is the greatest and i hope any of you reading this that need any internet services, click on that link for Pure Energy on the left.