Saturday, May 04, 2002
another day of feeling like warmed over poo - i'm having too too many of these days and i'm tired of it.
last night was more fun than i've had in a very long time, one of those nights that shouldn't end because it's that good so when it does it's a steep, quick descent into an unhappy reality. one of those days when the bad news is much worse than it should be and it takes massive amounts of energy to just seem ok. seeming being the key word.
i'm fighting a silent war with my body and my health right now and today makes me think the matter's going to win over the mind. and one of the worst parts of ill health is the insane amounts of pity and sympathy people show. i hate pity and i hate sympathy. give me understanding and support instead. give me silence so that i may speak but don't give me advice or a helpful opinion, that's not what i need right now.
next saturday is the apotygma/beborn concert. someone want to go with me, pretty please?