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    Wednesday, February 27, 2002     6:21 PM

i want very much to never have to see my parents again. i am a strong person, i know this but there is only so much daily abuse a person can take and not let bother them. i am tired of being told i don't care about anyone but myself, i am tired of being told i'm not good for anything, i am tired of being told i'm raising my voice when i'm not because it's an excuse not to listen to me. i'm tired of them having no patience and excepting that i snap to their every whim. and i ask for nothing from them. they pay for nothing, really. and as soon as they move out of here i will be paying for everything. and i look forward to that day so very much. i'm tired of being put down and told i'm not good enough, i shouldn't have to listen to that every single day. i'm tired of the hurt that it causes me because i know that the person i am will never be good enough for them.

i am glad that it's good enough for me and the people that care about me and constantly remind me that what they say is bullshit. but sometimes that isn't enough. sometimes i just want to take my savings and just leave, go far away from the years of uncaring.


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